Its peace all around, my face can feel the fresh breeze
early morning. I see a new person in me.
After what happened yesterday during Anil Sir’s class touched my inner soul to
the core. I feel like I just got reborn today.
My previous life, the life yesterday was so much reserved
and unexpressive. I always used to think, I am not good with words when it
comes to expressing.
There were times in my life when I was low and dark. Thou, I
was lucky enough to have my family always by my side supporting me in the odds,
I still felt so alone and lonely. They always used to ask me about the problems;
but I couldn’t share anything, suppressing my thoughts, my feelings that lead
to a negative me.
I use to promise myself everyday that whatever the inside
me, I shall wear a smile on my face so that all of me may not affect anyone and
everyone around me.
I remember the day in my life, when I told myself that all
is enough, I give up. But the call of god was not to be ignored and the very
next fine day my mom took my to Gurudwara and immediately when I entered, I
felt as if god himself reached my ears and whispered "Shri HarKrishan
Dhiyayie Jis dithe Sab Dukh Jaye". I had tears in my eyes and smiled of the fact that the god was with me
and this phase is going to end soon. Days passed over, and I was still waiting
for the click to happen. Regardless of my inner critic, my inner negativity
that used to kill me everyday, my belief in god kept me dragging. Finally, the
tables turned, and things were shaping up for my better.
Still, I always used
to think that there were vibes around me, who didn’t wanted who kept on
demotivating me until yesterday.
It was yesterday
when I finally realized that it was my own thoughts, my own frustration that is
leading me down at every step. There was lot inside me that did not wanted me
to open. Finally, the great wall broke. I had emotions all overflowing and
thereafter the hugs happened. I was happy. I was happy to let it out. I was
happy because everyone was happy. There was greeting smiles all over. Whole
classroom filled up with joy and there were positive vibes all around.
After the class got over, I realized that it
is I who has to flush out everything that is dumped in my head; it is I who
should control and channelize my thoughts.
I would close this
by saying; burn the negativity in you, express out as much as you can, because that’s
the only way you connect with your soul; the inner you.
Thanks a lot Anil
Sir, you are much appreciated!
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